Assalamualaikum

Rindu samten. Saja nak kabo hahaha. Im not sure samten should be proud of what i said or otherwise just take it as a compliment aa? Actually i was missing hostel and pmr. Not that much but ya, still i miss all the memories. Pejam celik pejam celik another 2 weeks dah nak ambik result ya Allah meremang! seram beb pmr ni beb kau jangan main main beb 9A beb 9A aku janji kat maayah aku beb. InshaaAllah, aku dan warga 184 calon PMR Samten yakin 9A ok! Aamiin.

Talk about hostel, hahahahahahahahaha i miss it just too much. 3 tahun sudah. I dont know how to explain sbb dia mcm sayang ada mencik ada menyampah ada rindu pun ada. Pernah rasa kan? Tapi rindu kemencikkan asrama tu for the most lol macam lepasni kau fly overseas je??? Hahaha no la maksud aku asrama kat samten. So i got the conclusion sepanjang i was in this hostel which is aku boleh tahan tak balik rumah pun for only 2 weeks sebab if more than that i probably have a mental problem. Propa habis. Paling paling pun, I will get too depressed. Sebab living in samten hostel is too depressing or I should say sometimes macam give up gila nak balik asrama. After the homeworks, presentation will come and takpun once you got a 'relieved breath' exam will be so close and you have to struggle hard to face the exam pulak! Tu didnt plus dengan basuh baju lagi, sidai baju, kemas dorm, tegang katil, locker bersepah, bantal tinggal dorm sebelah ADUH DEPRESSION BEB. Another depression tak masuk lagi dengan study problems, family problems, friends problems, homeworks problems everything was just pretty messed up bcs i added 'problems' at the end kan? hahahaha ya bcs aku jenis yang negativity terlebih positif terkurang and cepat stress. Sebabtu makin lama pimple is growing up happily~ in my forehead ya great -__-

TAPI actually what was i mengeluh before, i felt like everything is falling apart at asrama and i just felt macam asrama ni benci sangat kat aku end up, rindu. Rindu sangat. yela it doesnt make sense la whos literally loves asrama for the most kan? Best sebab ada kawan, ada kenangan tapi nak lalui liku liku paku peniti each of the day tu mashallah subhanallah tuhan je tahu betapa indahnya hari hariku~~ Tapi told ya 'keindahan' aku go through selama ni la yang ajar aku erti hidup, erti setia, erti berdikari, erti tanggungjawab semua jenis erti lah. Sebab susah beb nak go on hidup tak berpegang erat dengan Allah, jatuh rebah habis. Habis. Sebab tak semua faham kita, tak semua dare ambik masa sekejap je perati betapa patahnya hati kau betapa binasanya hidup kau, takda bro. yang ada, yang mampu hanya Dia. Kadang geram sebab orang yang korang percaya yang korang rapat ni membelakangi korang disaat korang memerlukan dia. Pernah rasa kan? Tipu tak. Mula macam susah la nak kawal, sedih nak level arwah la aku cakap. Tapi at the end, bila kau realize balik, toleh belakang pelan pelan, kau tersedar yang ada untuk kau selalu yang faham keadaan kau masatu cuma Dia, Allah. Tak kira la kalau satu dunia nak membelakangkan kau, Allah je yang setia ada untuk kau. Well actually were not living to please people. Kita hidup lillahita'ala. Kalau dia tak faham kau, doa semoga dikurniakan kekuatan. Kalau dia acik nak marah kau, doa semoga diberi ketenangan. Kalau dia susah nak maafkan, doa semoga dilembutkan hati. Doa doa doa. Selagi tak putus, selagi tu hajat kau mengalir terus Allah dengar. Antara kau dan Dia. 

Ha melencong hok mana dah ni hahaha. Ok macam tula recycle hidup seterusnya. Nampak mcm senang bangun mandi solat sekolah solat prep solat mandi solat prep tidur hari esok pulak bangun mandi solat sekolah solat prep solat mandi solat prep tidur and so on. Tapi gap between all those routine tu, Allah knows betapa sukarnya nak hadapi setiap hari tu. Whether like it or not, samten can be considered as my 2nd hometown and Alhamdulillah I'm doing fine. Stay grateful, Allah wouldn't test something beyond your ability and He actually  always gives us hint to pass all the test. Exactly. 

Rindu sangat kenangan kat asrama, nak typing each of the moments tu mmg out of words la bcs kalau theres a machine which might listen and type kan untuk aku for all i speak up then its okay hehehehe. Rindu rindu juga tapi keinginan nak keluar dari samten, searching for something better was on my wishlist. It's not bcs aku tak sayang samten tapi nak keluar, nak bawak nama samten ni leklok, nak pay with my success untuk samten cewah! Untuk maayah sibilngs sedaghe maghe atok nenek makcik pakcik sampai habis keturunan lah en kalau bole. InshaaAllah, ada rezeki mmg nak pindah. Nak tengok dunia luar. Nak achieve something better. Nak success. Memang berat hati kalau nak cakap kena tinggalkan oghe oghe tersayang ni ya Allah toksah disebut aa meleleh dah ni. Sedih ngat, berat hati. Tapi inshaaAllah.

Aiceh macam dapat tawaran sekolah seluruh dunia je hekhek. InshaaAllah bagi yang masih menanti dan berharap pun, keep on praying keep on du'a. Sandarkan harapan pada Allah. Allah tahu which is the best and always gives us the best. Cerita la kau nak sekolah mana tapi kalau Allah kata rezeki kau bukan katsitu, maka taklah. Kalau Allah kata rezeki kau kat samten, stay je. Kita dok mengeluh tapi siapa tahu spm kau 11A? Allah je tahu :) Jadi inshaaAllah, yes Allah knows best, whats the best for us. But remember that you deserve the best when you make the best out of everything. When you know you don't have anything and you still believe what you have is the best. When you're not at your best, you pray and be grateful. When you're at your best, you pray and be grateful :) 

All the best guys! 

Yakin 9A 

InshaaAllah straight As Aamiin

Salam alayk~